Sunday..
Hey,
I hope you can see that I am serious about us. On Sunday, I want you to click the other tab about the Future and take it in. I wrote some shit in there.
There are also packages for you in the Amazon lockers:
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I love you
With Everything I Never Said
I built walls instead of bridges,
held silence when love begged to be spoken.
You stood in the sun of your giving,
while I shivered in the shadows of my fear.
You loved like oceans — wide, deep, endless.
I returned like a stream — hesitant, unsure,
afraid of drowning in something
so beautiful…
so real.
This site,
this small corner of the internet,
isn't just code and colors
it's every word I should have said.
Every "thank you,"
every "I see you,"
every "I'm sorry I let you carry us alone."
I didn’t love you the way you deserved.
Not because you weren’t worthy
God knows you are the rarest kind
but because I was scared
of being seen
and getting hurt by you.
But you saw me anyway.
And now, all I want
is to return the favor
in full.
This place is for you, Ahshah.
A love letter that updates daily
with the beat of my heart
and the hope
that maybe, just maybe,
you’ll read between the lines
and feel the truth:
I love you.
I always have.
And I’m finally ready to show it right.
OS
Remember The Times
The way your nose scrunches when you laugh.
How your eyes say things your lips never had to.
These are the little things that were never little to me.-Olu
About US
We met in a Chipotle, two paths crossing in the most ordinary place but there was nothing ordinary about you, Ahshah. You were stunning. Grounded. Serious about your goals, yet full of a quiet fire that I didn’t fully understand at the time. I hired you, thinking I was just bringing on a great team member. A fine ass crew member but a great one nonetheless. I didn’t know I was meeting the person who would shift my entire world. I fell in love with breaking down your walls and was rewarded every time your goofy side came out, because I couldn’t help but smile. We had moments I’ll never forget from Miami’s bright skies to Jamaica’s warm winds but the memory that plays in my mind the most is the feeling I had when I realized you might be gone for good. It felt like the air left the room. Like my heart was trying to speak a language I had waited too long to learn.
I didn’t lead with enough intention. I didn’t create the safety you needed to be vulnerable. I failed to show you, daily, that you were loved deeply, endlessly. And that haunts me. I miss your presence… the way my existence used to spark joy in you. Now I just want you to look at me and know… know that you are everything.
If you gave me one more chance, I’d pour love into you like never before. I’d be present, purposeful, and poetic with my praise. I’d plan with you, dream with you, and bring back the spark through spontaneity and structure.
I love you, Ahshah. I always have.
I’m just sorry it took losing you to say it without fear.
Love From Your Favorite Nigerian
Listen up.
Every time I think about this album.. I think about us in your car smoking in the neighborhood by my house. We have so many little moments and music has always been a big part of how we enjoyed each other’s space. Lol. You put me on to using Pandora. You was always a little different.
The Night We Didn't
Call a Date
We didn’t call it a date.
Just dinner,
after a museum,
after a jay,
after pretending we weren’t already thinking about each other
a little too much.
The waiter walked in laughing
said we “smelled good,”
and we cracked up like kids who got caught
in something soft and harmless.
Something honest.
You were there for a school project.
I was there for you.
Even if I didn’t say it.
Even if the words got lost
between forkfuls of ravioli
and whatever playlist Maggiano’s had playing low in the background.
The table didn’t know it,
but something shifted that night.
We laughed like we'd done it a hundred times before,
but looked at each other like it was the first.
Like suddenly we realized
oh. it’s you.
And still, I didn’t say
what I wish I had said.
That you were important.
That your presence lit something up in me
I didn’t even know had dimmed.
That even if it wasn’t a date,
it was the moment I started
falling for you in a way
I couldn’t ignore.
Late Night Rides
We would take rides all throughout Bowie in your car. We would smoke. Go to 7/11 or WaWa and get our munchies. Come back and have sex lol. I look at this video we took and I get sad. I wish I kissed you more passionately. Longer. Sweeter. I wish I told you how much peace you brought me when we were together. I wish I told you have important you are to me. If I’m ever able to remake these moments, I’m not going to let up off you. I will make it my duty to make sure you know that you just how special you are to me.
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Look at your smile. Baby I make you smile and I can make sure you are happy. Trust me with your heart and see
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Like you are so fucking cute. I could eat your face lmaoooooo
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You was always trying to suprise me with some freaky shit
